The Norovirus that took us down!

As you May have read from our weekend away back in November Charlie had the most horrific sickness bug, what we thought was the end only turned out to be so so much worse.

Charlie seemed to have gotten better, his sickness had gone but by the Wednesday he had started to have really bad nappies. We didn’t think much of it at first as he’d had a really sharp orange for breakfast at my mums and we knew it may do this. But apart from that he was fine in himself.

Wednesday night was one of the worst nights sleep I’ve ever had. I tossed and turned all night I felt sick to my stomach, I was clammy then freezing I just knew something was up. Come 6am I was throwing up violently. I’ve only ever had the norovirus once, that was a few years ago and it was like something out of a horror film. Matt saw things he never should have had to see! I honestly don’t know how he looked at me in the same way ever since.

I already knew there was no way in hell I was capable of looking after myself let alone Charlie. sat in the shower for what seemed like forever, I waited for a reasonable time to text my mum to ask her if she could have Charlie. But, she didn’t feel 100% so we thought it was best not to risk it. I practically crawled back to bed and told Matt I’d just been throwing up. By the time Charlie woke up I was in no fit state, so matt got up and sorted him out.

We agreed to ask his mum if she could have Charlie for the day as Matt couldn’t take the time off work and thank god she said yes. I was so out of it I can’t even remember If I said goodbye to them both. I laid in bed all day, my whole body was aching. I got into the bath with the shower overhead about 3 times because it was the only place I could relax knowing I could just throw up over myself and it would rinse away. (Disgusting I know sorry)

I pretty much died in bed all day, the only movement I made was to the toilet. My whole body ached so badly. It was by far the most vile thing I’d ever experienced. The worst thing was it pretty much went round my whole family one after another it was horrible! I did mean to post this a while ago but things have been so hectic I promise to make time to post more!

Next year we are getting the flu jab ASAP! I can’t believe we forgot this year!

Here’s to good health going forward 🤞🏻💕

My poorly baby

We nearly made it a year without Charlie having any sort of sickness. That was until we were on our mini break!

Charlie had been fine throughout the day, we took him to a local play centre which he absolutely loved. We made sure we wiped down his hands often as you do, and everything was great.

We headed back to our log cabin, Charlie played for a while whist Matt got his food ready. We decided to try him with an Ellas kitchen sachet of chicken curry, which he absolutely wolfed down! We’d also bought a cooked chicken from Tesco so we added in some bits for him to eat by himself.

After dinner Charlie had a quick bath and into his pjs to settle down. He has hit bottle of milk and a cuddle before we put him to bed. He’s an excellent sleeper so when Matt put him down we never thought our night would take a turn.

Around 9pm I decided to pop my head in to check on him when I smelt the most awful smell I knew straight away something was wrong. When I peered over the top of the travel cot I could see a mass of sick – everywhere! I called to Matt quick as I picked Charlie up half asleep and started to strip him off. It was everywhere, and I mean EVERYWHERE. I’d never seen anything like it. His sleeping bag was covered, it was all in his hair, down his pjs, all across the mattress of his cot, all down the sides.

We’d had the monitor on it’s loudest setting and we hadn’t heard him stir so I don’t know whether this all happened whilst he was asleep which worried me even more! He didn’t cry or even murmur he was just really quiet, I held him and rubbed his back when I could feel him start to wretch. Oh no matt! As I rushed to the bathroom Charlie had been vomiting all over me.

I put him In the bath and pulled him pj bottoms off and nappy. I pulled my T-shirt off and chucked everything at the top of the bath. Matt was sorting out his cot whilst I washed him down and got all of the sick out of his hair. He was so good amongst all of the chaos he just sat quietly and played with his toy.

We dried him off and put him in clean pjs. We sat on the sofa watching I’m a celebrity. He seemed to be much better. Within 20 minutes he started heaving again and before I could even get up with him he’d been sick all down his fresh pjs! It was like someone was pumping it out of him!

We stripped him to his nappy and decided to leave him for a while and it was lucky we did because within minutes he was throwing up again. It was the worst thing I’ve ever seen, but throughout it all he didn’t cry or fuss, he was just quiet.

We’d left it around half an hour without any signs of more sickness, so we decided to put another pair of clean pjs on and put him to bed. I put him down came back into the living room and within 5 minutes heard him gagging on the camera, ran it picked him up and held him over the toilet as he was bringing up what was left in his stomach.

Luckily his pjs were still clean, after another long cuddle on the sofa I put him back down and thank god he went to sleep. Not that I slept all night I was constantly checking in on him to make sure he was ok. We don’t know what caused it but thank god hes so much better today! Nothing worse than seeing your baby poorly! X

Charlie @ 11 months

Wowza!? How quickly have these last 11 months gone. I know I keep saying it but I can’t get my head around the fact Charlie will be 1 in just a few short weeks.

He has come on leaps and bounds, it seems like he’s growing up so quickly. He is the most beautiful, funny, happy little boy. He is actually a little boy now, but he will always be my baby.

He makes us laugh every single day, he is so curious, fearless he’s into everything. Loves his toys, loves playing games, loves his food, loves his bed! We are extremely lucky. He’s no trouble for us, he’s a fantastic eater he will eat anything I put in front of him.

He sleeps like a dream, from the moment we put him down we don’t hear him until he gets up in the morning. He loves his bath before bed too. The only thing he doesn’t like is having his nappy changed or getting dressed but apart from that nothing!

He does grind his teeth a lot which goes through me! He still has 8 teeth, 4 at bottom & top. I thought I could see the white of his molars the other day but I wasn’t 100%. He’s crawling everywhere and he’s really fast, he stands up and sits down all day long. He does sometimes shuffle around the sofa, and I’ve seen him let go a few times and fall on his bum. He’s definitely getting more confident.

He loves to walk holding your hands but still hasn’t got his balance properly yet. We are going on a mini break at the end of the month to a lodge in Narberth for 3 days so that will be a nice mini holiday. We’re also getting this prepped for Charlie’s birthday party!

Exciting times! I’m not ready for him to turn 1, I don’t think I ever will be!

Hx

Charlie @ 10 months

I can’t believe I forgot to do a 10 month update! *bad mum alert!* Charlie is currently 10 months 3 weeks old! Wow where is the time going?

He’s as lush as ever! I cannot enough of him, he’s so funny me & the family are always giggling over things he comes out with. He’s making lots of weird and wonderful sounds, his new favourite is blowing his lips together which is pretty difficult for me to do! Nanny has been teaching him so he’s picked it up from her!

Charlie has 8 teeth now, 4 at bottom & 4 up top. He’s done really well when it’s come to the last couple of teeth coming through. We only actually knew he had the teeth when he opened his mouth and we noticed, we didn’t hear a grizzle from him. He is super super fast crawling now, and he is EVERYWHERE! I mean everywhere. We definitely need eyes dotted around our heads.

He constantly makes a break for it to get to the stairs! He half attempts to start to climb but gets too scared and comes back down. He is up and down standing constantly, it’s like he can’t sit still unless he’s winding down for bed or he’s captivated by his baby tv! We had a walker for him from matts mum as an early birthday present, so I’ve been helping him practise to walk with it a couple of times a day and he’s getting it slowly.

He eats really really well, anything I put in front of him he demolishes. He’s on two 7 ounce bottles a day, one first thing and a bedtime bottle. He absolutely loves his fruit, I think he would eat it all day if he could. I’m still trying to cook as much as possible rather than relying on the cow & gate jars. I try to now only use them if we are out and about or if he’s really over tired and he needs to get to bed. Other than that I try make him something, if I can I’ll make him whatever we are having for tea before hand.

He’s such a lovely happy baby, he’s really sociable. He just loves people and loves showing off he’s always making everyone laugh. He’s super chatty every single day he just babbles to himself all day. I can’t quite believe he will be 1 in 6 weeks time it’s really flown by. We’ve been lucky in the sense he’s been really healthy apart from a few weeks ago when he had tonsillitis & a chest infection which lasted around a week, then to top it off me & Matt caught the flu!

He’s still an excellent sleeper, we honestly don’t know how lucky we are. He goes down anytime from 6:30pm-7:15pm and sleeps through till around 7am. We don’t hear him all night, I never usually tell other mothers because I feel awful if their little ones are bad sleepers.

Loving every minute of watching him learn and grow – it’s the best!

Let’s talk anxiety

Today, was the day that my GP confirmed that I have Post Natal Anxiety.

I didn’t even know this existed until late last night. For the past few months, I couldn’t actually pin point when this started I have been having the most extreme thoughts about Charlie. Now, I mean thoughts of him dying. Constantly worrying and in fear. It doesn’t happen every day, sometimes I can go days without anything. But other days the simplest of things could make me think “what if”.

For example, some mornings I could be carrying him down the stairs and I can think “what if I slip and we both fall down the stairs and he dies”. Or he can be standing up in front of the TV holding onto the unit and I can think “what if he loses his balance, cracks his head on the corner and bleeds to death”. Crazy right? I could even sit there and tell myself why the hell are you thinking this it will never happen! The more I try not to think about it the worse it got.

Last night was one of those nights, it happens mostly before I go to sleep when you have lots of thoughts buzzing around. Again, I just kept thinking “what if Charlie dies, what if he doesn’t wake up”. Our night vision on our monitor has gone all fuzzy so it’s not great, so whether that triggered it I don’t know. I got into such a state sobbing into my pillow, the more I told myself I was being ridiculous the worse I became.

That’s when I turned to google. With tears streaming down my face I typed into the search: “keep thinking my baby will die”. And that’s when I discovered Post Natal Anxiety. It was a huge relief that I wasn’t alone. I read women’s posts on forums stating exactly the same things I was feeling. I wasn’t crazy after all. I knew I needed to talk to Matt as I hadn’t spoken to anyone about the way I was feeling.

So, this morning I sat down with Matt and told him everything that had been going on. He was brilliant as I knew he would be, I could see the upset on his face that I’d kept it to myself for so long. He gave me the biggest hug and kept kissing my head, he told me I needed to speak to someone so we agreed I would call my GP and book an appointment.

I was lucky enough to get in straight away for an appointment,I then called my mum and explained to her how I’d been feeling. Again as I knew she would she supported me 100% and I instantly felt better knowing I had backing from the two most important people too me. I took Charlie down with me, and explained everything how I was feeling to the Dr. He confirmed straight away he felt like I was suffering with post natal anxiety. He has referred me for someone to talk too and given me Propranolol which is suppose to help with the anxiety.

I am glad I spoke to Matt & my mum, I’m also glad matt pushed me to speak to someone today. Hopefully things will get a bit better going forward!

Always talk, it works wonders!

Hx

Packing for holiday with a 9 month old!

I decided to do a blog of what we packed to go abroad for a week. I probably started gradually packing a few weeks before. We took two cases as we had 23kg each, so for Charlie I wracked my brains to make sure I covered everything so here was my list for him.

We took his changing bag for the plane and packed everything else into our suitcases.

Plane Bag*

🔹 2 ready made bottles

🔹 Water bottle

🔹 2x Bottles

🔹 2x Fruit

🔹 2x Food

🔹 Spoon & Bowl

🔹 10x Nappies

🔹 2x packs of wipes

🔹 First Aid Kit

🔹 Teething Gel

🔹 Nappy Cream

🔹 Nappy Bags

🔹 Dummies & clip

🔹 Calpol Sachets

🔹 Changing Mat** this was amazing!

🔹 Feeding Bibs & Normal Bibs

🔹 Ear Defenders

🔹 Toys – Sophie, Bee, Crinkle Book, Bath Book

Suitcase

🔸 Lion King Shorts & Tee

🔸 Hooded shorts & Tee

🔸 T-Shirts x5

🔸 Rompers x4

🔸 Swim Shorts x3

🔸 Swim Suit & Hats x2

🔸 Suncream kids Factor 50

🔸 Nappies x25 (min)

🔸 Wipes x4

🔸 Shorts x4 beige,grey & denim

🔸 Hat for daytime

🔸 Sandals

🔸 Shortsleeved Vests x6

🔸 Swim Nappies x15

🔸 Sleepsuits x2

🔸 Bottles x2

🔸 Beach Tent

🔸 Inflatable For pool

🔸 mini pool

🔸 hooded towel

🔸 Light Sleeping bag

🔸 Bibs

🔸 Formula

🔸 10 Sachets of food

🔸 4 ready made bottles

🔶 Snoozeshade

I need to mention the changing bag – Matt bought a travel changing bag from amazon and it was a god send! It saved me lugging his backpack around and we used it throughout the day. It folds out into a changing Matt, has space for wipes, creams, nappies & wipes it was just perfect for what we needed. I’ve included pics below!

I’ll be honest I packed WAY too much for Charlie he didn’t wear even a quarter of his clothes as most of the time he was in his nappy and we would get him to sleep before we left for dinner in the evening so he would be in just a short sleeved vest bodysuit. Even putting shorts & T-shirt on him in the day it was just way too much as it was too hot. I think if he was older and staying up later then he would have worn a lot more but I am glad I over packed than under packed.

We didn’t use the beach tent or the small inflatable pool but would still take them for when he’s older!

Another thing I just have to mention is our snoozeshade – what an absolute god send this is. I use it every day anyway because it helps get Charlie off to sleep if we are out and about in his Pram. But for holiday it was great too! We used it all day everyday and it is definitely my holiday essential for any baby to have. We actually got ours off eBay for £5! BARG!

I think we took around 35 nappies in total and didn’t use them all, and we had swim nappies left over. Charlie went through 2 swim nappies a day we’d take him in the pool in the morning & afternoon. We also took Charlie’s 0.5 tog sleeping bag as he sleeps in one every night and wanted to try keep things the same, as we had air con in our room he just had a vest on underneath and that was fine he wasn’t too hot or cold.

I think that basically covers everything!

Hx

Our first family holiday! – Travel Day

I’ve decided to break my holiday down into separate blogs. Travel days to & from, then one blog covering the whole holiday as I think a daily blog would be too much!

So, we set off on Wednesday 11th September 2019 flying from Bristol to Palma. Our flight time was 6:05am, we decided to stay at my mums house In Cardiff the night before as she was looking after our two cats and it was less travel time.

We left at 2:30am, Charlie slept most of the way still in his pj’s and sleeping bag. As we got to the slip road to join the m4 towards London it was closed off and panic set in! We ended up driving round for 20 minutes trying to find the diversion until I found another route. I couldn’t chill out, not until we had checked in and we’re safely sat in the departure lounge.

We arrived at Bristol airport Carpark at just gone 3am, we parked the car grabbed our luggage and headed over to check the car in. I could see a huge queue and started to feel dread wave over me. Luckily it moved super quick and checking the car in literally took two minutes. Charlie was still sleeping in his pram so everything was going ok! We jumped on the bus and within 5 minutes we were being taken to the airport just a short drive away.

It wasn’t long before I felt panic again. As we approached the easyJet check in counter the queue was huge! It was only when Matt mentioned our speedy boarding that we headed round the other side to an empty queue! Woohoo! I would 100% recommend speedy boarding, specially with a baby it makes things so much easier! I don’t know what time we would have gotten to the departure lounge had it not been for us skipping the queue.

Once we’d checked in our bags we headed for security, straight away we were directed to a short queue at the end of the room and everything was really quick. Unfortunately we did have to wake Charlie up as we had to fold the Pram but he was as good as gold. He was so mesmerised by everything going on. We put our hand luggage into the trays and I emptied Charlie’s food & milk into a separate tray. Matt carried Charlie through no problems, but of course I was going to set the alarm off! I quickly was ushered to another scanner then searched by a woman and was free to go. I could already see that Charlie’s baby bag had been diverted to be checked again – great!

I waited for Charlie’s bag as Matt settled Charlie back into his Pram and waited on the side. A woman told me she’d have to test Charlie’s food and milk, I just prayed she wouldn’t open them all up but luckily she never and within 10 minutes she was back. They put the bag back through but had to re-check it again, they couldn’t find what was flashing up but decided it must have been his wet wipes so finally let me go! As much as it is an inconvenience, it wasn’t all that bad and everything was done pretty quickly.

Finally I could start to chill out as we headed into the departure lounge. Charlie was wide awake chatting away to himself happily. We decided to grab something quick to eat as it wasn’t long until our gate opened. We headed to our gate and again went straight down an empty speeding boarding queue, after our experience I will forever book speedy boarding going forward. We got on a bus and it was crammed with people I was conscious of a boy standing next to Charlie’s Pram I put a protective arm around the side and as I had anticipated the boy stumbled as the bus took off, and I gasped a breath in as he toppled back toward the Pram. Call it mothers instinct!

We joined a short queue to board the airplane, it was windy and cold I wrapped Charlie’s blanket around him as I held him. Matt passed the Pram to an attendant and off we went. I decided to pick our seats which I payed extra for, but again I’m so glad we did this! We were sat in the first row, with extra legroom. There was already a man sat on the end row and he smiled as we sat down next to him, he was lovely and Charlie had taken a shine to him straight away!

Charlie giggled and smiled at the air hostesses as we waited for everyone to board the plane. He was so happy! It was mad considering how long he’d been awake by now, he chatted away to himself and was no trouble. We got his bottle ready for take off and the air stewardess passed me an infant seatbelt and showed me what to do with it. Charlie wasn’t phased by take off he sat on my lap and had his bottle quietly, we were so proud of him. Not long after he fell asleep for around hour and half which was perfect!

Charlie woke up around 40 minutes before landing, he was still in a happy mood playing and smiling to the passengers behind us. He didn’t once cry, he was absolutely brilliant. Me and Matt kept saying to each other how amazing he had been. I put his ear defenders on just before landing as I didn’t want his ears to pop and he was fine, he got a little bit restless just before but I think he was just sick of being stuck on my lap as he’s so used to crawling everywhere now.

We were the first off the plane and headed to collect our bags, I think we waited around 20 minutes. I took Charlie to the toilets to change his nappy and put some shorts & T-shirt on as it was boiling. I waited a while but by the time I headed back matt had the Pram and bags ready to go. He was one of the last there, and had said how everyone collected the bags and they shut everything off, he and another woman waited for the prams and questioned where they were. Finally they were sent out, but he was worried whether we would get it

I booked a private transfer as the thought of travelling on a full coach just wasn’t for us. It was €160 euros return, but I’m so glad we did and it was definitely worth the money. A man was waiting for us at arrivals and we had a big mini bus to ourselves. We also had a car seat ready which was a massive plus it meant we didn’t have to lug ours around. The transfer from the airport to Alcudia was around 50 minutes but it absolutely flew by. Charlie entertained himself most of the way, then decided 10 minutes before we arrived that he’d have a nap! Typical!

Overall we had an amazing travel day, everything was quick and easy. Charlie was a little dream and other than the small issues we had at the beginning of the trip with the road closure everything else went to plan. Great start to our holiday!

Charlie @ 9 Months!

Woah slow down baby boy your growing way to fast. I’m struggling to deal with the fact time is flying by so quickly. Where has my newborn gone? My little baby is growing up before my eyes, and as much as I love watching his personality shine through it makes me sad.

He wakes me up every morning chatting away, even with the monitor on mute I can hear him from the next room. As soon as I walk into his room and I see that smile beaming at me I’m not tired anymore. He giggles constantly and it’s so infectious.

He’s still sleeping all the way through the night with not even the slightest sound. We are incredibly lucky. Charlie has 6 teeth 4 at the top and 2 at the bottom, but I’ve just noticed another 2 starting to break through either side of his bottom two teeth. He is constantly on the go it’s like he can’t sit still! He is everywhere and into everything! He’s so fast at crawling I can’t turn my back for a second.

He’s also started pulling himself up 🙈 seriously have to have eyes in the back of my head now! He’s always been really strong on his legs even from a few months old, and he’s always wanted to be stood up. So it’s no suprise that he’s trying to get up more and more now! He is still going through this thing of hating having his nappy changed or getting dressed. It never used to bother him but all of a sudden it’s like he has a meltdown every time!

Other than that he’s super happy! He eats really well, absolutely loves his food. We do half baby led and half spoon fed. He loves his fruit, so he has it every day. The only thing he’s slightly turned his nose up at was a tuna sandwich but everything else we’ve tried him with has been fine. Actually crazy to see how much he’s changing every month, I can’t wait to put all his pictures together from 0-12 months, although I’m not ready for him to turn 1 at in the slightest!!

We’re off on our first family holiday on Wednesday to Alcudia, and we cannot wait! I’ll definitely be blogging our trip just hope it all goes well!

Hx

What Motherhood Has Taught Me

Going from child free to expecting can cause a whirlwind of excitement, apprehension, and wishing Google had an answer to questions like “how to keep my baby alive”. But as a new mum you have to learn as you go – or more commonly known as “just wing it”. I put together some of my personal things which motherhood has taught me.

1. Don’t forget your hobbies, I love reading books!

I don’t mean baby books, I mean proper books the ones you can’t put down. The ones you go to bed early for just to sit for an hour and be totally engrossed. I love reading, and I miss it. My mum is also a keen reader and Is always sharing her favourite books with me and now I hardly get time to sit alone for 5 minutes let alone read a book, and when I do I’m normally too tired. – note “must make more time to read”. So in short, do what you love and make time for it when you have a baby.

2. Your physical & mental health is everything

When I got pregnant with Charlie I was over weight and unhappy, totally unfit. So in a nutshell the worst possible condition to have a baby (in my opinion). You have enough massive changes that will happen to your body over 9 months, without already not being in good health. I wish I’d lost weight and been fitter, not super fit but just fitter & stronger. I know for sure I would have had an easier pregnancy. It’s something I will 100% be taking forward before any future pregnancies. I feel like I missed out because I did suffer so much physically & mentally, Not forgetting post birth, your body takes a battering whatever way you give birth. So take the time to look after yourself and let your body heal.

3. Look after yourself & your relationship

I wish I had known that the first six months after having a baby would be hardest on my relationship, whether people want to admit it or not, it’s rough. If I had known the impact it would have, then I would have made an extra effort. It’s not all doom & gloom, having a baby has made us stronger and brought us closer together. It’s formed a new found love between us, but it also highlighted our weaknesses. Sleep deprivation, the stress of learning how to care for a newborn, and the changes to your body will have an impact on you, I personally found it all difficult to deal with. I wish I had known it was okay to communicate the things I was experiencing, instead of him wondering if it was his fault or if the baby was coming between us! So my advice would be to talk to each other keep that communication line strong if nothing else.

4. Give yourself a break

As a new mum you want to get everything right, and truth is you’ll never get everything right. You’ll make mistakes along the way, but that’s how you learn. Every time I didn’t know why Charlie was crying I’d be questioning myself and doubting my abilities of being a mother. I was really hard on myself specially in the early days id even say for the first few months no one gave me a harder time than myself if I felt like “I wasn’t quite getting it”. Now, I can read him like a book as can matt – we could sit and predict Charlie’s next move or emotion before it happens. That just comes with time & experience. You’ll be OK! Hang in there MUMMA your doing great.

5. You will realise your stronger than you think

You will see your inner strength which you never knew you had until now. At 3am in the morning when your newborn has been crying consistently for the last 4 hours and your about to loose your mind, that something which pulls you through ready to fight another day, that’s the strong stuff. You’ll cope, and most of the time you’ll wonder how! Then you’ll look back and realise that it was that inner strength which never showed itself until you really needed it. It will be a comfort to you, because you’ll know no matter what life throws at you along the way you will get through it.

6. You will feel judged by others, and you will judge too.

Charlie’s having a bloody melt down again, he’s screaming at the top of his lungs like I’ve just hurt him. Your eyes are darting around the room as you try and figure out how the bloody hell your going to calm him down. That voice in your head pops in “Oh everyone’s staring at you, I bet they think your a bad mum, god you can’t even control your child, what’s wrong with you?” You’ll be convinced every single person in that room was staring at you thinking the most awful things. Like wise, if you see parents doing something or saying something you don’t agree with, you’ll raise eyebrows & give the odd side eye. It will happen, you’ll feel vulnerable and out of your depth. But, it’s not the end of the world, you’ll see.

7. You will experience the most powerful form of love.

You or I could never put it into words the love which explodes from inside out once you have a child. You will get it, when you hold your baby for the first time you will understand what I’m talking about. You’ll never be able to describe it to anyone who doesn’t have children, you know they just have to experience it themselves. It is the most beautifully terrifying love I have ever felt. It is completely endless.

8. Mothers instinct – there is such a thing!

Yes it’s true, it exists. Like I said earlier you will learn about your baby, as they grow into an infant. You will understand them a bit more with every day that comes. And sometimes only you can make things better, there have been times where my mum has had Charlie and she hasn’t been able to settle him and she will give him back to me because she knew in that moment no one else could help but me. Just by the sound of their cry you just know what to do, where as in the beginning you go round in circles, feeding, changing, burping, comforting. Likewise when something’s wrong you will just know, I don’t know how to put it more simple than that. You’ll just know.

9. You’ll look at your partner in a way you never did before.

You love each other of course you do that’s one of the reasons you chose to have a family together. But, once you have a baby and you watch you partner & your baby together it’s a whole new type of love, an intensified love. I’ve just sat and watched Matt with Charlie many of times, and I could all day. My heart bursts with pride, love & respect. I am lucky that Matt is the most amazing dad, which I knew he would be. There is a real magical moment watching someone else portray the love you feel for your baby. Charlie will have the most unbreakable bond with Matt as he grows up.

10. You’ll love & respect your own mum more than you thought was possible.

I’m very fortunate that my mum is my best friend, my advisor, my comforter, my role model & the most incredible Nanny to Charlie. Since having Charlie, she has guided and supported me every step of the way and shaped me to be the mother I am today. If I can give Charlie what she has given me then I know I would have done something 100% right. I truly understand how much she loves me & my brother, I completely understand all hopes & fears she has for us. She once told me, “I never thought it was possible to love again like I loved you & Sean. That was until, you had Charlie and it’s all come flooding back”. She is my angel, don’t know what I’d do without her!

Hx

Hands up if you love a bargain!

I love finding little bargains we’ve had loads of baby things and they have all been great! Specially when they grow out of things so quickly, why spend so much money on brand new it makes no sense to me!

That’s when me & Matt decided that instead of spending an absolute fortune on toys which Charlie will grow out of quicker than the speed of light, that we’d buy second hand. Also, it’s his first birthday & Christmas 24 days apart. So, me loving a bargain went on the hut to see what I could find. Obviously we would only buy things in great condition- and boy did I hit the jackpot!

I’d seen someone on Facebook marketplace had been listing lots of different toys and offering bundles. They were perfect! From V-Tec toys to high chair toys there was everything we were looking for. I contacted them and sent a list of what I liked and asked what deal they could do. 15 toys for £48 delivered. Absolute STEAL!

I spoke to Matt and asked him what he thought and he was on board so I went ahead and sealed the deal. I had them delivered today and they are all in fantastic condition and they all work perfectly I’m SO pleased! We have decided to split them in half for his birthday & Christmas. But that is our toy bulk done apart from a ball pit which we still need to buy.

I find a lot of things on Facebook Market & eBay, my mum has had a few baby things from Facebook which she keeps at her house too. People are always selling baby stuff so whatever age have a look and see what you can find I bet you’d be surprised. This isn’t about us being “cheap” we’ve already spent a fortune before he was even here, we quickly realised that it was bloody expensive!

Happy bargain hunting!

Hx